With the search going on for Robert Blaine within campus. It has got me thinking more about what he is going through, has been through and why alcohol is his comfort
I remember the day firstly when Boyd went on the original trip. He was excited to see what could be there. That was the first time I met Blaine. He seemed like a good guy and yes he was good looking but I was mostly focused on saying goodbye to Boyd as I hugged and kissed him.
The second time I really saw Blaine was when the smaller group prepared and despite what Boyd told me, I was still shocked that Blaine was not going due to injury. Blaine looked disappointed that he was unable to go but wished the group well. He seemed taken with Daphne. Needless to say we had no idea it would be the last we saw of them.
The third time I saw Blaine was when it was announced in College that the students was missing but one a Mr Boyd Patterson has been confirmed as dead. As my world fell apart and I cried. Blaine looked guilty, survival guilt I thought. A few months later I hear that alcohol has taken him.
The fourth time was on the trip I was on. I had no choice as my grades dropped and it was almost compulsory I went. By then I was trying to hold together but finding out Blaine was the leader hit me hard. I felt apart inside. He seemed to still be drinking but appeared to be functional. He also shared his drink with me on that fateful night.
I don’t know what will happen the fifth time. The almost shared history has me worried about him. I’ve seen him fall apart once, I do not want to see it again. He is a smart guy.